Shifting from Survivor of Gun Violence to Thriver of Life

Exactly 4, 015 days ago, my father threatened to end my life with a loaded gun. In other words, 11 years ago I was almost killed. Within those 11 years, I have climbed corporate ladders, spoiled my mom with sponsored trips around the world, crossed many finish lines (including Ironman), seen therapists, worked with coaches,Continue reading “Shifting from Survivor of Gun Violence to Thriver of Life”

Detachment: Dancing Through the Storm

The last few days, I’ve been wrapped up in my feels. With the collective awakening, I’m tickled to be in the position I am currently in… I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be. I for one, LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVEEEEEEE the awakening. The first time I was forced to deal with mortality was inContinue reading “Detachment: Dancing Through the Storm”

What is Love? Forgiveness? Reconciliation? Acknowledgement?

I dunno about you but I’m low key excited about this entire coronavirus situation. Is it scary? Yes. Can bad things happen? Possibly. Can good things happen? ABSOLUTELY!!! As the world goes stark raving mad, I acknowledge I’m in a very unique place. Mentally, emotionally and spiritually. I’m holding space for myself and continuing toContinue reading “What is Love? Forgiveness? Reconciliation? Acknowledgement?”

I’m proud to be the White Sheep in a dysfunctional (bio) family

Last week, I had an interesting phone call. It was from a person that was pretending to care about me and my healing journey. It was odd but expected. I didn’t entertain his judgements. As a matter of fact, it was easy to deflect and even easier to understand knowing that this was the firstContinue reading “I’m proud to be the White Sheep in a dysfunctional (bio) family”

Dear Spirit, Thank you for being

Dear Spirit, Thank you. This season has been one of the biggest challenges I’ve ever embraced. It was bigger than climbing corporate ladders. It was scarier than moving to a new country. It was emotionally, mentally, and spiritually destabilizing… There were moments when I wasn’t sure if I had lost the plot or if IContinue reading “Dear Spirit, Thank you for being”

Poem: What if I told you…

What if I told you that everything in your heart Was going to be pulled completely apart? Every smile that is shared Is another ‘hit’ to be bared You decided to dim your light Because you were tired of the fight Every way you turn Something started to burn You protect your friendships with somethingContinue reading “Poem: What if I told you…”

The brainwashing continues… I AM WORTHY

It’s been about a month. A month of silence for my blog anyways. I’ve been very active on other social media platforms but have shied away from my blog because I needed some time and space to divide and conquer. When I purge emotions about my biological father, he backs down. When I purge emotionsContinue reading “The brainwashing continues… I AM WORTHY”

I’m grieving the loss of a family that never existed

Yesterday, I felt that I was getting short tempered. I know that my rough edges were starting to expose themselves. I opted to just shut down and get back to basics. I put my phone in airplane mode. And I allowed myself to sit. I did a few loads of laundry. Active meditation of sorts.Continue reading “I’m grieving the loss of a family that never existed”

Tug of War for time.

Admitting there is a war is the first step in winning the war. Is it being fought on my territory? Who is the war between? Is it between me and others or is it a war within? Is it a war that requires time or is there an easy solution? Are my allies really alliesContinue reading “Tug of War for time.”

I’m tired

I’m tired of having the circular conversations. I’m tired of picking up the pieces. I’m tired of reminding others of why I’m value added. I’m tired of looking at motivational quotes and thinking CLEARLY THEY GREW UP WITH A NON DYSFUNCTIONAL FAMILY. I’m also tired of taking courses where I have to remind myself thatContinue reading “I’m tired”