Exactly 4, 015 days ago, my father threatened to end my life with a loaded gun. In other words, 11 years ago I was almost killed. Within those 11 years, I have climbed corporate ladders, spoiled my mom with sponsored trips around the world, crossed many finish lines (including Ironman), seen therapists, worked with coaches,Continue reading “Shifting from Survivor of Gun Violence to Thriver of Life”
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What is Love? Forgiveness? Reconciliation? Acknowledgement?
I dunno about you but I’m low key excited about this entire coronavirus situation. Is it scary? Yes. Can bad things happen? Possibly. Can good things happen? ABSOLUTELY!!! As the world goes stark raving mad, I acknowledge I’m in a very unique place. Mentally, emotionally and spiritually. I’m holding space for myself and continuing toContinue reading “What is Love? Forgiveness? Reconciliation? Acknowledgement?”
There is NOTHING simple about doing the work.
Every once in a while, the Universe decides to spinkle my life with amazing people. To be fair, my life is filled with amazing people. Sometimes I allow my emotional pain to sit in the drivers seat preventing me from seeing things for what they are and people for who they are. With all theContinue reading “There is NOTHING simple about doing the work.”
I’m proud to be the White Sheep in a dysfunctional (bio) family
Last week, I had an interesting phone call. It was from a person that was pretending to care about me and my healing journey. It was odd but expected. I didn’t entertain his judgements. As a matter of fact, it was easy to deflect and even easier to understand knowing that this was the firstContinue reading “I’m proud to be the White Sheep in a dysfunctional (bio) family”
Dear Spirit, Thank you for being
Dear Spirit, Thank you. This season has been one of the biggest challenges I’ve ever embraced. It was bigger than climbing corporate ladders. It was scarier than moving to a new country. It was emotionally, mentally, and spiritually destabilizing… There were moments when I wasn’t sure if I had lost the plot or if IContinue reading “Dear Spirit, Thank you for being”
Poem: What if I told you…
What if I told you that everything in your heart Was going to be pulled completely apart? Every smile that is shared Is another ‘hit’ to be bared You decided to dim your light Because you were tired of the fight Every way you turn Something started to burn You protect your friendships with somethingContinue reading “Poem: What if I told you…”
I’m grieving the loss of a family that never existed
Yesterday, I felt that I was getting short tempered. I know that my rough edges were starting to expose themselves. I opted to just shut down and get back to basics. I put my phone in airplane mode. And I allowed myself to sit. I did a few loads of laundry. Active meditation of sorts.Continue reading “I’m grieving the loss of a family that never existed”
Tug of War for time.
Admitting there is a war is the first step in winning the war. Is it being fought on my territory? Who is the war between? Is it between me and others or is it a war within? Is it a war that requires time or is there an easy solution? Are my allies really alliesContinue reading “Tug of War for time.”
Gaslighting? Trangulation? They are BOTH exhausting.
I’m tired of having the circular conversations. I’m tired of picking up the pieces. I’m tired of reminding others of why I’m value added. I’m tired of looking at motivational quotes and thinking CLEARLY THEY GREW UP WITH A NON DYSFUNCTIONAL FAMILY. I’m also tired of taking courses where I have to remind myself thatContinue reading “Gaslighting? Trangulation? They are BOTH exhausting.”
Healing Overdrive: Understand – Accept – Let Go
I’ve realised that my morning writing is calmer (and more accepting) than my afternoon writing. This is an interesting reflection because it means that I’m allowing the dysfunction of the day affect me. By no means am I an abuse expert in the textbook context, however, I’m an expert on experience. I’ve been through someContinue reading “Healing Overdrive: Understand – Accept – Let Go”