It’s time to stop running & start planting roots

I’ve been thinking of ways to acknowledge this season of healing and celebrate my existence. This tattoo symbolises so many things… the pictures capture just about every single emotion possible… I love my bio family with something fierce. My love will never fade. I’m OK that they do not love me in a way that IContinue reading “It’s time to stop running & start planting roots”

You gave love freely and without agenda. You simply loved & You loved really hard.

Dear Jess, This year was one for the books. It’s a year that defined you in so many ways. A few weeks ago, you described the year in a single word BETRAYAL. I’d like to correct you. The year can be summed up with a different word, LOVE. You found love where it didn’t exist. You createdContinue reading “You gave love freely and without agenda. You simply loved & You loved really hard.”

Conversations with self whilst others help me look for my smile…

Sometimes all I need is having someone smile when my name pops up on their phone.  I have friends sprinkled around the world. I’m extremely blessed because some of these friends have become my family. Actually, all of them are in my heart space. All.of.them. They know who they are. They know what they meanContinue reading “Conversations with self whilst others help me look for my smile…”

Broken vs Evil… is there a difference?

I started this entry on August 31. A few days after I left ‘home’. My mother was having open heart surgery, meaning I had to deal with the most manipulative person in the entire world (her son). Her son had distorted her reality to a point where she was already a shell. When she’s notContinue reading “Broken vs Evil… is there a difference?”

“How do you feel about guns in the house?”

A question that keeps coming up. “Jess, how do you feel about guns in the house?” Such a loaded question, no pun intended… *awkward sigh* Well, being a survivor of domestic violence, specifically gun violence, this question is rather complex. I do not have a straightforward answer. I’m not entirely sure how to address this question.Continue reading ““How do you feel about guns in the house?””

Gaslighting? Trangulation? They are BOTH exhausting.

I’m tired of having the circular conversations. I’m tired of picking up the pieces. I’m tired of reminding others of why I’m value added. I’m tired of looking at motivational quotes and thinking CLEARLY THEY GREW UP WITH A NON DYSFUNCTIONAL FAMILY. I’m also tired of taking courses where I have to remind myself thatContinue reading “Gaslighting? Trangulation? They are BOTH exhausting.”