Last week, I had an interesting phone call. It was from a person that was pretending to care about me and my healing journey. It was odd but expected. I didn’t entertain his judgements. As a matter of fact, it was easy to deflect and even easier to understand knowing that this was the firstContinue reading “I’m proud to be the White Sheep in a dysfunctional (bio) family”
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Devaluation and Discard
The last 17 weeks have been anything but easy. It’s been confusing, heartwrenching, and soul-crushing. I have continued to push out words but very selective on what to share with the world. I was convinced that the new evil I was dealing with was darker than anything I had experienced before. I needed to disengageContinue reading “Devaluation and Discard”
Dear Spirit, Thank you for being
Dear Spirit, Thank you. This season has been one of the biggest challenges I’ve ever embraced. It was bigger than climbing corporate ladders. It was scarier than moving to a new country. It was emotionally, mentally, and spiritually destabilizing… There were moments when I wasn’t sure if I had lost the plot or if IContinue reading “Dear Spirit, Thank you for being”
Poem: What if I told you…
What if I told you that everything in your heart Was going to be pulled completely apart? Every smile that is shared Is another ‘hit’ to be bared You decided to dim your light Because you were tired of the fight Every way you turn Something started to burn You protect your friendships with somethingContinue reading “Poem: What if I told you…”
Maintaining Grace through Emotional Abuse
The biggest compliment other than THANK YOU for making me feel worthy … are comments on my GRACE. Yes, grace. Most days, I honestly feel like a bull in a china shop. As a matter of fact, a few months ago, I was using the hashtag WILDEBEEST because that’s how I perceived myself. Lawless. WithoutContinue reading “Maintaining Grace through Emotional Abuse”
Healing Overdrive: Understand – Accept – Let Go
I’ve realised that my morning writing is calmer (and more accepting) than my afternoon writing. This is an interesting reflection because it means that I’m allowing the dysfunction of the day affect me. By no means am I an abuse expert in the textbook context, however, I’m an expert on experience. I’ve been through someContinue reading “Healing Overdrive: Understand – Accept – Let Go”
Dear Family that stood still
Dear Family that stood still, I would love to credit you for doing nothing but your inaction was actually an action. The responsibility of an adult is to protect children, whether they are your own or not. It’s your responsibility to protect people that are unable to protect themselves. I’m pretty sure this is outlinedContinue reading “Dear Family that stood still”
“Your abuser’s trauma does not justify them abusing you” – Unknown
“Your abuser’s trauma does not justify them abusing you” “Your abuser’s trauma does not justify them abusing you” “Your abuser’s trauma does not justify them abusing you” “Your abuser’s trauma does not justify them abusing you” “Your abuser’s trauma does not justify them abusing you” “Your abuser’s trauma does not justify them abusing you” “YourContinue reading ““Your abuser’s trauma does not justify them abusing you” – Unknown”
I am a Big Fat Liar
I was listening to the news and someone asked, DO YOU LIE? My answer: YES. I lie to myself every.single.day. I tell myself people care. I tell myself it was a mistake. It was just a misunderstanding. A generation gap. A cultural difference… ignorance. I tell myself the timing was off. The stars weren’t aligned.Continue reading “I am a Big Fat Liar”
Challenge Roma Triathlon (70.3) – race recap
This is my 3rd restart for writing… I have so many things in my heart that need to come out but I’m struggling to articulate what needs to be said. It’s not a matter of what I want to say. It’s embracing the frustration of wanting to say something and experiencing a disconnect between myContinue reading “Challenge Roma Triathlon (70.3) – race recap”