Mindfulness without Cynicism​

I’ve been having a number of conversations with people these last few weeks. Perhaps this is a testament to being back in the flow… Mindfulness. Attachment. Expectations. Cups of Love. Give mode. Projections. One of the conversations I would like to share has been my desire to be mindful without being cynical. To see thingsContinue reading “Mindfulness without Cynicism​”

Breaking the Trauma Bond (Domestic Violence)

I’ve been digesting so much information. The information is useless to my heart. The heart wants what the heart wants. The head can digest the information but the heart doesn’t think, it only feels. The heart is taught that family is there no matter what. The heart says that everyone deserves love. The heart saysContinue reading “Breaking the Trauma Bond (Domestic Violence)”

Being Secretive vs Private

Have you ever noticed when you identify someone as being a victim of abuse, they are very private? Why are they private? Is it because they are scared? Is it because they are hiding something? Or is it because they are protecting those they love? For me, it’s about protecting those I love. I haveContinue reading “Being Secretive vs Private”

The day my childhood bedroom turned into a crime scene.

The crime: domestic violence The weapon: a loaded gun The victim: me (the daughter) The motive: unprocessed pain? uncontrolled anger? Tempers flying was the norm. “I’m not yelling! You want to hear yelling?!” was a regular tagline. So was, “Stop it or I’ll give you something to cry about.” We had good days but man,Continue reading “The day my childhood bedroom turned into a crime scene.”

I do not negotiate with terrorists.

I’ve been pouring my heart and soul into my writing these last few weeks. Most of the words are not public… I reached some new territory for my processing and needed to give myself some personal space. I have found that writing makes me vulnerable and I maintain balance by sharing, observing, sharing, observing, sharing…Continue reading “I do not negotiate with terrorists.”

Philippines

Most of my trips to the Philippines have been to the islands. My favourite trip was a roadtrip from Manila to Subic. My mom was able to meet her team and we all shared laughter during lunch in a treehouse overlooking an active volcano…   #Travel #GlobalNomad #Philippines #Manila #Tagaytay #Subic #Bohol #ChocolateHills #Tarsiers #VolcanosContinue reading “Philippines”

Taiwan

Taiwan is known to be the heart of Asia because of the warmth of the people. My first trip to Taiwan was 2004 (study abroad in university) and this particular trip was in 2013 (mother-daughter bonding). I was based in Hong Kong and brought my mom to Asia for a month. Taiwan was a weekendContinue reading “Taiwan”

Letter of Gratitude: My readers

Dear Readers, Thank you. Thank you for passively (or actively) following my journey. I’m over the moon with love and humbled at the same time. (37 countries!!!) I’m not certain that I’m deserving of your time but I appreciate you joining my journey. I am in the process of purging a LOT of hurt. MyContinue reading “Letter of Gratitude: My readers”

Letter of Gratitude: Mommabear

Hey Mommabear, Generally, I send out letters of gratitude but I’m testing out a new format and outlining the things I appreciate about you. You have been a superstar example of how to process emotions and embrace quirks. Below is a snapshot of things I appreciate about you! Thanks for being such an important roleContinue reading “Letter of Gratitude: Mommabear”

I feel your presence, Thank You.

Day 8. Freewriting. I’m having an emotional moment. It’s a combination of grief and longing. With a side of guilt. These emotions are so intense that I subconsciously call on my guardian angels (my grandfathers) as my tears fall… Grandpas – I miss you. All the power in those words. I cannot bring myself toContinue reading “I feel your presence, Thank You.”