Letter of Gratitude: My readers

Dear Readers,

Thank you. Thank you for passively (or actively) following my journey. I’m over the moon with love and humbled at the same time. (37 countries!!!) I’m not certain that I’m deserving of your time but I appreciate you joining my journey.

I am in the process of purging a LOT of hurt. My current tool is writing. It’s a double-edged sword because I find purging offers an opportunity to sit in the darkness. I’m not going to lie, the process is painful. Reliving certain things is heartwrenching. Over the years, I have developed many tools but writing seems to be exactly what I need. The combination of digging deep within myself and then forcing myself to be vulnerable… it’s not a safe place. There is nothing easy about facing the truths about myself and others. It’s terrifying. I prefer my rose-colored lens, sincerely. Life is good when I assume good intentions… in my reality, everyone is loving towards one another.

But these words are to you, my readers. THANK YOU.

Thank you for supporting my vulnerability. Thank you for patience when I go dark. Thank you for understanding my journey (or trying to at least). Thank you for reading my words. Thank you for sharing my pain. Thank you for reaching out in mysterious ways. Thank you for spreading love. Thank you for helping me understand how to love myself unconditionally. Thank you for remembering humanity first. Thank you for teaching me about emotional resilience. Thank you for allowing me to just… be. Thank you for being a harbour in the storm.

I thought I was OK but my questionable decisions in 2017 have forced me to accept that I’m not OK. I’m hurting and it’s OK to not be OK.

Vipassana gave me the tools to observe the body and master the mind. Writing is allowing me the deep dive for healing/purification. You, my readers, are giving me the courage to continue (when I feel I’m losing the war, I remind myself of who is watching). I refuse to be defeated. So thank you for being a reader.

So, from the bottom of my heart, THANK YOU. THANK YOU. THANK YOU.

With tremendous love,
Jess

#WednesdayGratitude #WhyIWrite #MentalWellness #JourneyToPeace #OutOfTheDarkness #Forgiveness #Healing #Love #Hope #Family #Relationships

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