I’m constantly surrounded by love. I know this in the deepest part of my soul. My heart is sometimes overwhelmed with pain. My head gets distracted with trying to quantify things. But my soul knows. It always knows. When my grandfather transitioned, I felt a part of my heart go with him. I felt veryContinue reading “Art of Receiving. Art of Reciprocity.”
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There is NOTHING simple about doing the work.
Every once in a while, the Universe decides to spinkle my life with amazing people. To be fair, my life is filled with amazing people. Sometimes I allow my emotional pain to sit in the drivers seat preventing me from seeing things for what they are and people for who they are. With all theContinue reading “There is NOTHING simple about doing the work.”
Where can I love myself just a bit more?
“Jess, you can push me away but I’m not going anywhere…” I’m bumbling through a side step. I’m doing the best I can. A few old habits are dying hard. And it’s the first time that I’m being called out, consistently… others are noticing that despite my efforts, my walls are coming up. My toleranceContinue reading “Where can I love myself just a bit more?”
When numbers represent home: Unit 3070.
Last August, my person (my mommabear) went in for a routine check-up. They asked her to stay for extra tests. The next day, they had quintuple bypass surgery. Since my mommabear refused to create a living will, POA, or any of that stuff, I was going to be forced to deal with a very troubledContinue reading “When numbers represent home: Unit 3070.”
Recalibrate and DEFINE a new normal.
*I’ve been writing whilst off-grid. Amature move is putting the words in an email rather than a word document. Autosave apparently didn’t work. It’s a shame as I had some pretty good flows. Keeping tabs on my emotional processing as I move through this road trip has been a priority. The Universe obviously wants toContinue reading “Recalibrate and DEFINE a new normal.”
Unrequited love. Planting roots. Building bookcases.
“Jess, this is for when you move back to the USA and get your own place.” I’m entering a new chapter and this is the thought that keeps creeping into my mind. During the moments of quiet, the voice of my mommabear comes in. And just like that, I’m offered an opportunity to stuff theContinue reading “Unrequited love. Planting roots. Building bookcases.”
Honouring my existence on Father’s Day
Honouring people is easy. Celebrating people is easy. What’s not easy is coming to terms that sometimes the people we love are in so much pain that they cause us a great deal of pain. AND what’s very difficult is focusing on self-care to honour and celebrate me. In the last 2 years, I’ve writtenContinue reading “Honouring my existence on Father’s Day”
Surrounded​ by LOVE because I AM LOVE
“Hey, can we talk about something?” “Of course, what happened?” I LOVE LOVE LOVE that my life is filled with people that respond like this. For years, the response was “What’s wrong?” A response that puts me in a place of guilt and wanting to be invisible. “What is it now?” A response that isContinue reading “Surrounded​ by LOVE because I AM LOVE”
Prayers Go Up, Blessings Come Down
A statement that keeps surfacing is ‘do not allow others to block your blessings.’ This is such a powerful statement. I used to call people season, reason, lifetime. Simplifying to this new mantra: BYE! DO NOT BLOCK MY BLESSINGS simply makes me laugh. A dear friend is the one that keeps saying it. She’s myContinue reading “Prayers Go Up, Blessings Come Down”
Happy Mother’s Day
Acknowledging that I’m allowing myself to get lost in the emotion of it all. Today is Mother’s Day. Mother’s Day is a day to celebrate and honour the very person that brought you into this world. The first person that wiped your butt. The first one to feed your soul. The first one that comfortedContinue reading “Happy Mother’s Day”