Lost in Trauma, Gained through recovery.

I’ve been spending a great deal of time on LinkedIn. October is Domestic Violence Awareness Month. 2017, I started public speaking workshops for teenagers. 2018, I had a bunch of purging on facebook. 2019, I’m doing awareness on LinkedIn. Officially it’s the last platform to break my silence. I know I’m loved. I know thereContinue reading “Lost in Trauma, Gained through recovery.”

It’s time to stop running & start planting roots

I’ve been thinking of ways to acknowledge this season of healing and celebrate my existence. This tattoo symbolises so many things… the pictures capture just about every single emotion possible… I love my bio family with something fierce. My love will never fade. I’m OK that they do not love me in a way that IContinue reading “It’s time to stop running & start planting roots”

The Magical Penis

Before you get excited, I’m going to start by saying this concept is not what you think. As someone that has kept my family dysfunction, my family abuse, my brokenness, VERY private, I have learned a few things about sharing my pain. I have been joking about this concept for a few days so thoughtContinue reading “The Magical Penis”

Am I still in pain?

There were so many thoughts and feelings during my morning training session. In the pool, it was a series of gratitude, disappointment, then gratitude to people that have tested my loyalty to myself (notice I didn’t say people that hurt me). The theme being self-love. On the bike, it was a series of thoughts relatedContinue reading “Am I still in pain?”

EXAMPLE OF (FLYING MONKEYS)

The culprit(s): Biological Brother’s friend (Monkey 1) & elder brother (Monkey 2) Example: A flying monkey is basically someone that carries out abuse on behalf of someone else. The abuser in this situation is my biological brother. Since we are estranged, he manipulates others to carry out his dirty work. It’s sophisticated warfare. Most of theContinue reading “EXAMPLE OF (FLYING MONKEYS)”

EXAMPLE OF (TRIANGULATION)

The culprit: Uncle Example: An Uncle is a flying monkey. Flying monkey is the role, Triangulation is the action. Mental/Emotional warfare is the game. In healthy family dynamics, people speak directly to one another. In dysfunctional family dynamics, people speak indirectly. (remember this is a game – think of an adult version of the game ofContinue reading “EXAMPLE OF (TRIANGULATION)”

Narcissistic Abuse is death by 1,000 papercuts

As expected, there is a wave of abuse that is brewing. The abuse is not directed towards me because abusers have accepted that I have grown. I am strong enough to set [healthy] boundaries and hold people [publicly] accountable for abusive behaviour. My growth is the subtle shift from testing my threshold of suffering inContinue reading “Narcissistic Abuse is death by 1,000 papercuts”

Who Hurt You? Who Helped You?

I know that I’ve written about this shift before but I’m not sure which purge… One of the challenges that I face is understanding my intuition. I know most people say that it’s not something to understand. Well, I’m not normal and I enjoy doing things that are not considered normal. Besides, I am wellContinue reading “Who Hurt You? Who Helped You?”