Reflections: The Abused Dog

I started writing about Mindfulness without Cynicism. The words were easy to write but not the message that my heart wanted to share. I could not hit publish. This is my restart. I’m forcing myself to share these words. But rather than a purge, I’m sharing a story of an abused dog. Something relatable. ***Continue reading “Reflections: The Abused Dog”

Narcissistic Abuse is death by 1,000 papercuts

As expected, there is a wave of abuse that is brewing. The abuse is not directed towards me because abusers have accepted that I have grown. I am strong enough to set [healthy] boundaries and hold people [publicly] accountable for abusive behaviour. My growth is the subtle shift from testing my threshold of suffering inContinue reading “Narcissistic Abuse is death by 1,000 papercuts”

Who Hurt You? Who Helped You?

I know that I’ve written about this shift before but I’m not sure which purge… One of the challenges that I face is understanding my intuition. I know most people say that it’s not something to understand. Well, I’m not normal and I enjoy doing things that are not considered normal. Besides, I am wellContinue reading “Who Hurt You? Who Helped You?”

Messages from my subconscious; Alignment via writing

I cannot stop thinking about how I’ve felt completely broken, unworthy, and useless. I know that these are effects of gaslighting but I didn’t know what was truth for a while. It’s as if I lost sight of WHO I am. I read and reread my homepage to remember my inner light. I read theContinue reading “Messages from my subconscious; Alignment via writing”

Reflecting on Tools: Writing vs Sports

When one is building a new skill, it’s necessary to minimise as many factors as possible. For instance, I have been leaning on sports for as long as I can remember as an emotional processing tool. Yes, I love sports. Yes, sports make me feel better. The underlining reasoning for doing sports was a constructiveContinue reading “Reflecting on Tools: Writing vs Sports”

Kundalini Awakening…

I dove into reading. An attempt to make sense of these waves. Internally, it’s near breaking point. Externally, I’m no longer conscious of who is on my path. Everyone is being treated as a lesson, not a friend, not family, not athletes… but teachers. I love learning. I love when people hold up mirrors. IContinue reading “Kundalini Awakening…”

The hidden​ benefit of letters of gratitude

I’ve been thinking about the current alignment of the planets and the moon… apparently, Mercury is in retrograde (again)? I’m not 100% sure but this seems to be code for the abundance of energy being thrown around! I’ve been learning about how some people are empowered and others are using this energy to cause trouble. ToContinue reading “The hidden​ benefit of letters of gratitude”

I do not negotiate with terrorists.

I’ve been pouring my heart and soul into my writing these last few weeks. Most of the words are not public… I reached some new territory for my processing and needed to give myself some personal space. I have found that writing makes me vulnerable and I maintain balance by sharing, observing, sharing, observing, sharing…Continue reading “I do not negotiate with terrorists.”

Reiki certified. Different paths, same results.

Day 15. Freewriting. I have been working on a few certificates. The newest skill to perfectly compliment my writing journey, is Reiki. I know many ways to maintain the harmony of my mind, body, spirit. Reiki certificate is formalising what I’ve basically been doing for years. Deconstructing what I was doing on autopilot. Another benefitContinue reading “Reiki certified. Different paths, same results.”

Focusing on the Good does not mean Forgetting the Bad.

“You wouldn’t know how we feel. You come from White Privilege.” “Your life is just so perfect. You’ve never had to deal with hardship.” “Everything is just so easy for you. Pretty girl privilege.” Last week, these were statements made to me when I tried to discuss ways to move forward (solutions). My opinion, theseContinue reading “Focusing on the Good does not mean Forgetting the Bad.”