I’m proud to be the White Sheep in a dysfunctional (bio) family

Last week, I had an interesting phone call. It was from a person that was pretending to care about me and my healing journey. It was odd but expected. I didn’t entertain his judgements. As a matter of fact, it was easy to deflect and even easier to understand knowing that this was the firstContinue reading “I’m proud to be the White Sheep in a dysfunctional (bio) family”

Love is a decision, not an emotion.

I’ll be the first one to admit most of my conversations are with myself. Sometimes others are present to plant a few seeds and other times, it’s quite simply an exchange between my head and my heart. Sometimes the conversations are via the blog; Sometimes the conversations are getting lost in Jess World; and whenContinue reading “Love is a decision, not an emotion.”

The brainwashing continues… I AM WORTHY

It’s been about a month. A month of silence for my blog anyways. I’ve been very active on other social media platforms but have shied away from my blog because I needed some time and space to divide and conquer. When I purge emotions about my biological father, he backs down. When I purge emotionsContinue reading “The brainwashing continues… I AM WORTHY”

From ROCK to RAGING RIVER and back to ROCK

The last few weeks have been rather interesting. With a shift in the Universe and also a shift within. Lots of crazy things have been happening. It’s actually kind of funny to be honest… I pride myself on having outstanding crisis management skills. As long as others are having moments of complete duress, I’m ableContinue reading “From ROCK to RAGING RIVER and back to ROCK”

My Eulogy

There are so many emotions around sharing this piece with the world. I actually wrote it last summer and asked a dear friend to read it in the event I was murdered. Even if we lost touch, I made him PROMISE to be the one to read my words. At that moment, I needed peopleContinue reading “My Eulogy”

Emotional Resilience: My recovery cycle – from 3 weeks to 18 hours !

OVERVIEW An abuser will come out to play and try to start trouble in my lane. They will say things to get me to question my reality. They will plant seeds to get me to question my sanity. They will plant a seed to get me to question who I can trust. Emotional abuse isContinue reading “Emotional Resilience: My recovery cycle – from 3 weeks to 18 hours !”

I am a Big Fat Liar

I was listening to the news and someone asked, DO YOU LIE? My answer: YES. I lie to myself every.single.day. I tell myself that people care. I tell myself that it was a mistake. It was just a misunderstanding. A generation gap. A cultural difference even. I tell myself that the timing was off. TheContinue reading “I am a Big Fat Liar”

Does time heal everything?! (No, consistency does)!

I’m presented with an interesting challenge. At this exact moment, there is another wave of people from my past that are resurfacing. There is a moderate chance it’s because I have been blasting my social media with living large (back to my globetrotting ways). My experience is that harmful people come out to play whenContinue reading “Does time heal everything?! (No, consistency does)!”

Difference between toxic and abuse

There is a subtle, yet important difference between toxic people and abusive people. At least in my world, they are different, not interchangeable. A toxic person is someone that is blissfully unaware of their garbage. Putting others down is their way of life and it doesn’t stop. They don’t necessarily approach you. They are justContinue reading “Difference between toxic and abuse”

Reflections: The Abused Dog

I started writing about Mindfulness without Cynicism. The words were easy to write but not the message that my heart wanted to share. I could not hit publish. This is my restart. I’m forcing myself to share these words. But rather than a purge, I’m sharing a story of an abused dog. Something relatable. ***Continue reading “Reflections: The Abused Dog”