Tag: Emotional Abuse

Being unapologetic in my healing journey

I’ve reached a new layer in my healing. The Universe keeps presenting me with situations forcing me to stand up for myself. About 6 months ago, I would have a huge tug of war between my mind and heart. When someone greeted me with… Continue Reading “Being unapologetic in my healing journey”

Example of (Hoovering)

The culprit: High school friend Example: The Hoover was disrespectful to me in 2015. Rather than apologise like a normal human being, he has attempted to re-establish contact in 2016 and again in 2018. Claiming that he’s apologized, the only communications I’ve actually received has been… Continue Reading “Example of (Hoovering)”

Mindfulness without Cynicism​

I’ve been having a number of conversations with people these last few weeks. Perhaps this is a testament to being back in the flow… Mindfulness. Attachment. Expectations. Cups of Love. Give mode. Projections. One of the conversations I would like to share has been… Continue Reading “Mindfulness without Cynicism​”

Am I still in pain?

There were so many thoughts and feelings during my morning training session. In the pool, it was a series of gratitude, disappointment, then gratitude to people that have tested my loyalty to myself (notice I didn’t say people that hurt me). The theme being… Continue Reading “Am I still in pain?”

EXAMPLE OF (FLYING MONKEYS)

The culprit(s): Biological Brother’s friend (Monkey 1) & elder brother (Monkey 2) Example: A flying monkey is basically someone that carries out abuse on behalf of someone else. The abuser in this situation is my biological brother. Since we are estranged, he manipulates others to… Continue Reading “EXAMPLE OF (FLYING MONKEYS)”

EXAMPLE OF (TRIANGULATION)

The culprit: Uncle Example: An Uncle is a flying monkey. Flying monkey is the role, Triangulation is the action. Mental/Emotional warfare is the game. In healthy family dynamics, people speak directly to one another. In dysfunctional family dynamics, people speak indirectly. (remember this is a… Continue Reading “EXAMPLE OF (TRIANGULATION)”

Reflecting on Tools: Writing vs Sports

When one is building a new skill, it’s necessary to minimise as many factors as possible. For instance, I have been leaning on sports for as long as I can remember as an emotional processing tool. Yes, I love sports. Yes, sports make me… Continue Reading “Reflecting on Tools: Writing vs Sports”

The day my childhood bedroom turned into a crime scene.

The crime: domestic violence The weapon: a loaded gun The victim: me (the daughter) The motive: unprocessed pain? uncontrolled anger? Tempers flying was the norm. “I’m not yelling! You want to hear yelling?!” was a regular tagline. So was, “Stop it or I’ll give… Continue Reading “The day my childhood bedroom turned into a crime scene.”

I do not negotiate with terrorists.

I’ve been pouring my heart and soul into my writing these last few weeks. Most of the words are not public… I reached some new territory for my processing and needed to give myself some personal space. I have found that writing makes me… Continue Reading “I do not negotiate with terrorists.”

words to build. words to break.

Day 10. Freewriting. Connectedness. Words are so important. Thoughts, words, energy, accomplishments… they are all connected in some way. Everything is important… my morning freewriting (stuff I share on my blog) has been magical to help identify some kinks in my armour. Perfect warm-up… Continue Reading “words to build. words to break.”

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