I feel your presence, Thank You.

Day 8. Freewriting. I’m having an emotional moment. It’s a combination of grief and longing. With a side of guilt. These emotions are so intense that I subconsciously call on my guardian angels (my grandfathers) as my tears fall… Grandpas – I miss you. All the power in those words. I cannot bring myself toContinue reading “I feel your presence, Thank You.”

Letter of Gratitude: D

Day 7. Freewriting. As I continue to remove the one-sided friendships, I’m offered a unique opportunity to grow my “letting go” muscle. A few weeks ago, a “friend” offered to check out my blog and give some feedback (I had just switched up a few things and wanted a second opinion on my flow andContinue reading “Letter of Gratitude: D”

A LOVER: My favourite questionable decision…

Day 6. Freewriting. Feelings are powerful. I have love on the mind and looking at the evolution of my processing heartbreak over the last decade and the feelings (un)processed. Yesterday, a friend commented how I was all feelings and they didn’t think it was possible for me to avoid feelings like a full-time job. ItContinue reading “A LOVER: My favourite questionable decision…”

i AM the perfect drug. ABUSE me and I will DESTROY you.

Day 5. Freewriting. Self-criticism -> Self-Love. Everyone has parts of them that they wish to change or soften. My first thought is what would I change about me? *5 seconds later* N.o.t.h.i.n.g. I’m absolutely perfect. I don’t have imperfections. I have quirks. I KNOW that I have pure intentions so any misunderstandings come from the otherContinue reading “i AM the perfect drug. ABUSE me and I will DESTROY you.”

Burning More Bridges Than China Builds…

Day 4. Freewriting. Setting boundaries and saying NO to situations that compromise my well being. Death is on my mind. It seems to be all around. Professional death… Physical death… Spiritual death… I guess spiritual death is related to mental wellness (my current obsession) so it kind of comes full circle… Everything in extremes. OrContinue reading “Burning More Bridges Than China Builds…”

Apathy is going to kill humanity

Day 3. Freewriting. The word that keeps coming up is APATHY. The question in the back of my mind is WHO HURT YOU (thank you, Dustin Hoffman, in Runaway Jury). I fell asleep relatively early but woke up in the middle of the night due to a snuggling puppy. He knows something is up butContinue reading “Apathy is going to kill humanity”

ALL things have a price tag.

Day 2. Freewriting. I have a LOT of things to do today and need to have a strong mindset. This is my morning flow to clear my head. Who is mentally unwell: the person committing suicide or the person lacking empathy? Sometimes I break my own heart – it’s the only way to let inContinue reading “ALL things have a price tag.”

Please stop breaking me. Love, Heart

Day 1. Freewriting. Processing hurt: Crack open your heart to let in the light… They say that everything happens for a reason. Sometimes things are meant to build you up and other times, things happen to remind you of your inner strength. I have spent YEARS trying to conceal the heartbreaking parts of my life.Continue reading “Please stop breaking me. Love, Heart”

Hoovering? Love Bombing? … who knows?! It’s just another manipulation.

When I date someone, I start a shoebox for relationship keepsakes. When the relationship ends, the box turns into a bag. The bag gets chucked into my closet. I shared this quirk with some friends and they wanted to open the bags… They thought it was clever and sentimental but odd. Looking back, I’ve datedContinue reading “Hoovering? Love Bombing? … who knows?! It’s just another manipulation.”

Focusing on the Good does not mean Forgetting the Bad.

“You wouldn’t know how we feel. You come from White Privilege.” “Your life is just so perfect. You’ve never had to deal with hardship.” “Everything is just so easy for you. Pretty girl privilege.” Last week, these were statements made to me when I tried to discuss ways to move forward (solutions). My opinion, theseContinue reading “Focusing on the Good does not mean Forgetting the Bad.”